july 29

im getting close to being done with all my paintings for my sugary paint show!!! wooo!!! when im finished im going to polish up the website and obviously also put in the new paintings. im slowly learning how to loosen up my strokes and marks ...its like im kind of in an independent study now, for a few years. haha! -im having to guide myself by trial and error but im always looking at art magazines, etc. and work of other artists to keep my perspective sharper and not stubbornly honed in on where im at in a piece. also, im learning that you have to be flexible and humble and willing to give up a plan you think you HAVE to keep -...you know ...kind of like life :/ Instead of being a stubborn little baby and trying to force something, im consciously trying to have more 'dialogues' with the work..(but dialogues that are almost..fights, that you have to win!...); you want to listen to whats happening and be very malleable in order to let the work, itself become malleable- and thus, it becomes its own real presence..(and you've whipped it into submission! haha). mostly i look at books that i have to help me. ("books are my friends") these are some of my favorites that i look at the most (i look at them and immediately think oh man have to go paint)




one of my favorites :) its called chrysanthemums, (if youd like to hear something nerdy and embarrassing, they remind me of the momraths from alice in wonderland, which i dont know why, theyve always been my favorite part from the movie) plus um.. the colors, movements, etc etc. are sooo BEAUTIFUL!!!


i LOVE loveeeee LOVE the way monet painted the couch here...ahhh! oh my gosh. ...and its relationship to the red pattern in the carpet, the dark green background, with the stark bright white (obviously from the window and sunlight that was actually there and that actually cast the beautiful shadows) but within the composition,to give a breath of freshness and emphasize relationships...

freaking look the the neon orange in her dress next to to dark greens, whites in shadows, etc.... ahhhhhh! (besides the obvious beautiful composition and light and shadows and enormous skill)

love!!!


this image of cy's painting doesnt give the real one justice bc you cant see the individual, different hues as much. the looseness of it is so inspiring to me -but a 'looseness' that has FORCE and a place and creates point blank statements in the painting, not a looseness that is there out of not knowing what else to put or being gimmicky or trying too hard to make something perfect or pretty or not even thinking at all (and just pushing paint with a palette knife and calling it art! ...sorry had to rant there for a second, im ok now)- it is just a confidence that is understood and stated.





i think im loving lautrec more every day. AHH! i mean. the way that he paints..... is amazing and beautiful and gentle but matter of fact..the marks have his hand in it but are also existing independently. i want to paint like him (oh and *him and **him)